A station to rest, before the long journey

Well...
since yesterday...
the day I made a big decision to stop everything
i mean giving up on someone i couldn't have...
and it's just fine... nothing went wrong...

and hoay yin...
thanks for caring ya ^^
I haven't forgotten that I still have plenty of time...
I'm just having a normal reaction.. like...
Losing a target to love = A broken heart to suffer
(wow~~ i got the rhythm~~ =P)
anyway...
I'm a fast healer... =)
might back to normal self in a few days...
thanks ya~~

It's just very good to have someone care..
really.. it does...
but trust me...
I will never give up my hope..
I'm just... resting... at least i think...
and i will never go through my mind to suicide or something
I'm weak in waiting... but I'm strong in enduring.. =)

today...
I'm just having some time with my buddies.. in qb...
i just hope to get some fresh air.. or rather QB-air.. XD
and watched The Old Dog...
a comedy movie actually...
i laugh... but still... i have some problem with some scene too..
especially when i see and heard the word "fr****e"...
that's a bit reminding me someone... who i've decided to give up on...
but it still a good memory that I can still love.. =P
and other scenes...
those that are related to the Dad-word...
especially these days i kept dreamed of having a quarrel with my dad...
weird...
and somehow i was mad at him...
somehow.. but weird..
because I never had a single quarrel with my dad..
trust me..
not even once..
that's why this is freaking me out...
except one time before my mom and dad divorced...
the first time i saw dad's holding the cane and "shoot" us...
I must say...
Dad... you're really not suit with the cane... a saw might be better.. =)

lately I've been watching Charmed again...
and it triggers my desire to make my own Book of Shadow again.. =P
well...
I had started making my own Book of Shadow since the end of 2007
and i stopped for a long time due to SPM
and now college.. which is not a very good timing..
but still...
i guess I'm still into the witchcraft thing.. XD
might try to make up some spells when i have the idea..
but still...
college always my first priority... =P

at last...
I'm ok.. =P
just need some time to settle down my feeling..
and start to hunt for new target again.. =P
who knows...
every year might be my year..
and this year might be the year... ^.^
wish me luck...