I'm haunted

I'm really down

very very down

I fall into a hole deeper than you thought

It's not easy to let go of this haunting

Anything

Anywhere

reminds me of you

and the way when you know nothing 

and everyone enjoys the fun

and then the way you avoid me

the way you can't face me

the way you being now

I'm dying inside

and I'm not sure if I really wish to die outside

We're never been couple

but it's hurt like breaking up of them

and I'm STATING right here and right now

I'm hurt

it's not because I cant have you

ITS DAMN BCOZ THE WAY YOU TREAT ME

this is far more pain than a humiliation 

it's cant be solved by just because it's my birthday and i wish you could be nice to me that day and you did nice to me but it's just that day!!! it's not right!!! AT ALL!!!! why can't you just treat me like how you treat everyone!!! talk to me like how you talk to everyone!!!! AND AT LEAST LOOK AT ME WHEN YOU'RE ANSWERING ME!!! 

you have no idea how much pain you put on me!

yes!! I know this is not your fault!!

and YES!! It's damn my fault!!!

for dragging you in!!!

and yes...

this is my life

I've been wandering between this two line

It's you who make me fall so deep

yet it's not your wrong

and yet again, it's not solved

it will be haunting me

for dont know how long

I just wish

I could stay alive

not thinking of finding the short road

I wish I could think in a better way

but how could I

I'm not okay at all.. ='(