Wednesday, November 30, 2011

那些年,那几个月

有时候会很孤单
但是有时候会自己站起来
稍微的跌倒
躺在地上几个月
是时候抬头站起来了

像我之前讲的
最有效的解决
就是面对
把自己关起来
什么用都没有
只会让自己越来越消极

听会我以前听的歌
让我觉得我的过去也是那么有趣
也是那么多让人心碎的事
日子越久
我的心事
一次比一次还要艰难
爱得一次比一次深
跌得一次比一次痛
也了解了很多事

样子,真的没那么重要
一开始就是喜欢好看的
现在
还会说自己为什么喜欢样子那么普通的
有时不是想逞经典
而是真的
用自己的心
感觉一个人的好
没有我们看到的美貌好

黑暗的夜晚已经快要结束
我的阳光要回来了
慢慢
我会回到更乐观的自己
有点想要扮《那些年》的男主角说的
请让我继续喜欢你
哈哈哈
也望自己能找到对的人
至少我不想再像这样痛得死去活来 ^^

Saturday, November 26, 2011

I'll come back, but I'm not coming back

Day by day
I lived through pain and insane
I couldn't make it
seriously
why is it so hard
just to put down and forget
JUST GET OVER IT
I just couldn't
and now I'm living in my own hell

Internship is going to over soon
not really sure wanna back to INTI
Everything will be so different
and I don't wanna back to the different world I used to have
I couldn't

The consequence of everything
the backfire of having so much friends
and much more close friends
leaving us here
leaving me here
I couldn't stand it
I just want to hug you all and cry out loud
Until now
I didn't really have a chance to completely let go my anxiousness
Kahying, Hoayyin, Rachel... everyone
it's kinda weird
We're all having our own problems at the same time
and we're all falling apart in the world
We couldn't meet up

I just want to see you all
honestly speaking
I really don't wan to touch anything about college
I used to like college life
everything i learnt is really what I want
but now...
things have gone too over
Nothing gonna save it
and even I'm back there
I just wan to be alone
that's all
hate it or what
I've already been like this
I couldn't make everyone forget everything and start all over again
at least I'm not the one who can handle it

When will the Vivacious be gathered again
Siewlin...
I'm waiting your return
you're the one who I didn't hug for the longest time

I miss you all
my college life
has been ruined
by myself

Thursday, November 24, 2011

为了什么而活

都已经多久了
我怎么还是...
haiz...
实在是太难改变自己了

过去如何适应
我已经忘记了
现在要适应
好像完全没有了免疫力
我已经很脆弱了

我可以笑
但是我无法开心
伤痕
还没完全好呢
怎么办呢

我不会担心我眼睛的隐形眼镜干掉
因为我随时都让泪水保持潮湿
很讽刺吧

我一直忘记
忘记怎么忘记一个人
忘记自己为了什么更重要的东西而活
不过
现在的我
应该没什么更加重要的东西了

督促我的
推动我的
已经没有了
我还能为了什么而活

Sunday, November 20, 2011

应不应该回来

差不多一个礼拜罢了
我已经回来了
不知自己到底适应了没有
总觉得好像还没有

不知会不会又在人间蒸发一下


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

首次公开 - Book of Shadow

这是我第一次公开我的Book of Shadow
其中一页
我还会继续做的
虽然我已经停很多年了
因为没有时间
这时候
这应该是我最需要的咒语
我自创的


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