I Hate Myself

due to some technical problems of my laptop

I will use ENGLISH to write out

which i not very likely to use

haiz~~

I've been so so long time havent update my blog

INTI is so so so stressful lately..

Stress

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Emo

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no mood

lately i think i've just failed my machine test 1

the question is so easy

and i know i had memorized everything

but when i sit down

everything just gone at the moment my ass touched that chair

I hate myself

hate myself for being so stupid

lately i can't even catch up what's lecturers were teaching

my programming sucks

my assignment sucks

cant even solve simple problem

misinterpret other's idea

as a result mine being different with others

well.. this not really that bad

but still... 

now i only realize I'm so useless

for the past semester

I've been tagged along

so i'm not handling my work alone

but now when it comes to be alone

i cant do anything

i'm theoretically and practically sucks

and the most important is

IM BEING TOO LAZY THIS SEMESTER

ever since jurin and zijia gone to KDU

I hardly move my bones

haiz~~~

emo~~~

emo~~~

emo~~~

instead of being emo of studies

i would rather being emo of love

now i cant even recall the desire wanted to be loved

it's insane

i sounds like non-human

a person who serves only work and studies

he's not considered as a human

he doesnt have a life

i want to be normal

i wan to have feel toward others

yet

i still wan to settle my study problem

i hate myself

haiz~~~