Monday, June 2, 2008

02/06/2008 3.07 a.m. 生存之道

对了对了。。要誊清一下。。
原来我第一次跟异性两个人吃东西的人是huei ling er。。
我真的忘记去了。。XD
不好意思。。kah ying。。结果是你一个人失去了你的第一次了。。哈哈。。
昨天我终于去training了。。懒惰了那么多个星期。。我终于重出江湖了。。XD
真是的。。我带sparring set来。。竟然没有机会spar。。T_T
不过算啦。。下次吧。。XD
不过昨天wei hong跟guodin打了一场。。
erm。。怎么说呢。。guodin防御比较没那么理想。。所以可以说战败啦。。
不过轮到wei hong跟liang soon打的时候。。就geng lo。。
我先声明哦。。wei hong是黑带的哦。。
然后liang soon真的超级geng。。他的连续攻击压倒了wei hong leh。。
wei hong被逼出场外了。。
不过我不是说wei hong不geng啦。。
只是liang soon真的很厉害。。能力足以压制黑带的wei hong。。佩服。。佩服。。
还有啊。。我已经决定要参加了tournament的了。。没有改变的了。。
但是真的很麻烦lo。。
还要穿mouth-guard。。穿shin-guard(不知道是不是这样spell)。。
一点也不舒服。。>.<
不过算了啦。。要参加。。这些也是compulsary的。。
刚刚我们一家去了隔壁aunty的女儿的婚礼。。
这是我今年去的第二次了。。
不过去的时候。。我们在北海那边迷路了。。XD
所以我们也迟到了。。哈哈。。
不要说我没礼貌啦。。那个新郎的年龄真的是有点大差别啦。。
但是不用紧啦。。最重要是心。。XD
而且那个新郎是'地中海'的。。哈哈。。paiseh paiseh。。no offence。。
去了这次以后。。
我才发现我那么爱槟岛啊。。哈哈。。。
哪像在北海会迷路的啊。。而且晚上的时候没什么路灯的。。
erm。。我现在虽然说是渴望恋爱。。
可是我其实没有说刻意去找的啊。。
怎么说呢。。我是隋缘。。mean by chances啦。。
但是我说的chances是指缘分啦。。
并不是说想单方面认识就认识的。。
我没有恶意har。。。
可以说我太挑剔啦。。但是我的心并没有那种要来就来的feel。。
(所以我才会那么久找不到喜欢的人啦。。XD)
我承认。。我并不像其他男生那么有绅士风范。。
而且我也不像其他人那么“chi-gou”。。
想认识一个女生就拼命讨电话。。
我只想要过着普通的生活。。直到我遇到真正喜欢的人。。
我很老土hor。。XD
而且我其实不是很想跟那些想追求我但我不要的人做朋友的。。
sorry har。。我不是说我不喜欢交朋友。。
我完完全全没有恶意har。。
只是我知道那种感觉。。
我经历这种事比较多吧。。XD
就好像我喜欢一个人。。而且我想追求他。。
可是我是知道跟他是不可能的了。。
但是我却跟他做了朋友。。
明明是能以朋友的身份那么靠近他的。。但是却不能跟他更进一步。。
到最后。。伤心的还是自己。。
有时完全不给希望比稍微给一点希望还好。。
如果是给那么一点点希望的话。。应该知道这是有多么残忍的吗。。
所以哦。。sorry har。。我不想伤害你。。所以不想给你任何希望。。XD
no offence ya 。。
这是我的生存之道。。XD

24 comments:

书香女孩 said...

感情的事不能勉强吧?
每个人都有他们追求感情的方式,
只是你选择了等待~
加油~找到你的真命天女!yes!呵呵~

° ¤☺ zЗz☻¤ ° said...

lol.
生存之道..
aneh pun boleh

Anonymous said...

你们槟岛那才容易迷路吧?!!==
每一次去都迷路,所以我家人都不敢去了~XD

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[书香女孩]
应该吧。。
我现在最想的也只是等了。。XD

[zez chien]
boleh la..
mana tak boleh.. haha..
but really la..
its my way of life..XD

[jonathanzai]
会吗?
但是北海真的很空哦。。
我觉得槟岛比较繁。。所以不那么容易迷路。。XD
maybe是每个人有每个人不同的观念吧。。XD

Anonymous said...

erm...but i got different opinion ler..cant b couple but still can b friend de ma...but i will clearly tell them i dun like her,but we can b best friend ...juz see her lor..if she wan, den ok lor..dun wan oso nvm ma...XD
although say many times, i still wanna say again...so envy ler..i dun hav so many best friends...T.T
i alway alone...bcoz i scare them, i noe they cancern me n care me...but they still will betray me..so time dun noe which 1 is their real face...
haix....T.T

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[kai jing]
those best frenz to me is quite different la..
i did really can use my heart to feel their warm...
i can feel that they really treat me good..
n since i hv experience that idiotic incident..
i will quite beware in choosing fren..
so i can cautious..
dont worry..
u can do it..
use your heart to feel..
like when they smile or watever..
u can tell if they really hving the faith in you..XD

Jessica said...

lols. think in a simple way. sometimes fate must get it urself. impossible sit there and wait for it to come wert. i do believed our life is controlled by we ourselves. eu never try b4 how can eu know tat eu dun have feeling? and its not chigou, its givin urself 'chances'. 'chances' wont come itself, it depends on eu, to get it and treasure it. rmb 机会不会第二次敲你的大门. and lastly, dun close up all ur doors and windows. ppl knowin eu just bcos they wanted to, but not in any purpose. =]

passed by, and givin out some stupid opinions. sorry if i interence eu.

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[loo-jessica]
haha.. its ok..
ur point of view aint useless...
yup..
wat u said is actually right..
but sometimes thing doesnt really match wat i wan..
my desire had been set long long time ago..
its not really easy to change it..XD
its not like i dont like to know a girl or whoever..
its juz like its not my style..
ok.. u can say im veryi weird..XD
but usually i dont go straight for the chances..
btw.. the chances i mean was really like planned chances..
ok la.. i admit im very choosy la..XD
n i noe im self-centered...
i only care about my own feeling..
but its too risky for me to make the same mistake and crying alone in my own bed..haha...
anyway..
thx for ur opinion ya.. =P

Anonymous said...

i dun nod 2 feel la..i use my eyes oredi can see wat they do, use my ears oredi can hear wat they say liao...><
haha..i move 2 peneng n live v u lor...den i can belive u liao...XD

Jessica said...

lols. nt ur style to know anyone? yaa. thats gud if eu know tat eu are reli weird and choosy. uhhar?? wat mistake have eu make? eu sket to get hurt ? or?? lols. anyway, i have linked eu . =)

Jessica said...

and ohh ya. i know why eu are so choosy. virgo are all lik this. lols. i do own frens which is virgo. lolssss xDDD

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[kai jing]
haha.. as if u will move to penang ar..
haha...

[loo-jessica]
erm.. ya..
im sometimes prefer to be lonesome as a hermit..XD
erm..
mistake ar..
haha.. dunno...
maybe la... kinda scare to get hurt..
but its always my own fault..
haha...
linked you too.. =P

Anonymous said...

i not only move 2 peneng n oso move 2 ur house...haha...
den u nid not find gf liao..haha...
juz 同居 v me...
ur blog getting more comment after i come...see, i bring luck 2 u ler...XD

Jessica said...

lolsssss. swts ler euuu. sket to get hurt?? nt everytime oso wil get hurt dee ma. eu never try then eu wont know whats wil happen laa. lolsss.maybe eu meet the right one. XDDDDD . thankss =]

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[kai jing]
haha...
i dont wan u move into my house..
i wan ur bubu move into my house can liao..XD

[loo-jessica]
haha..
its like this 1 ler..
u not very know about me gok la..XD
happen too many thing..
i quite know it very well...
btw..
are u a fren of chocolate?
juz guess nia.. =P

Jessica said...

yeah. obviously i dunoe bout eu very well. lolss. things sure wil happen dee ma. just depends on how eu face it laa. maybe every1 need time to forget bout the past. opps. shudnt say forget. shud say left it behind ur brain, let it bcom a memory. this is the best way. every1 need to face the fact amd accept it and even fight wif the world. 不要让一次的失败成为绊脚石. xDDDD

lols. wat if i tell i am not?
is tat so important tat i am or i am not? i think tis is not wat eu gonna ask. other question? lols

p/s; remind again. NO other purpose. =)

loy said...

wow!!!
lots of comments...
since you praise me, i gonna leave a comment too...hehe...
im not that good...actually...
leave that issue...

now, about the gf you want...lol...
i totally agree with loo-jessica, you should find it if you want it...not waiting for it to come...this is no drama and lives are always difficult and will not be that lucky...

besides, i also would like to have one...lol...now, as for the point you said that you are not gentleman, so what??? im also not one!!! gentleman is rubbish...in my opinion, being a gentleman doesnt mean you are a nice and good man...does it?

lastly, good luck anyway la...for your coming gf...lol....
and, erm...why not kah ying???
from what both you said, you both looked like great friends...sit couple seats somemore wor....good luck ya!!!(just kidding, but think about it)

Anonymous said...

hey, u so bad la..><
haha..bubu cute, its owner oso cute ma...
haha...^^
although 爱情不能强求, if u reli fall in love 2 a girl....
den juz do it...but can no 乱乱love la...
u so lengzai, nanti all girl will sad sad de...
haha...erm...if u reli fall in love 2 a ppl, i will give u fully support de la...^^add oil...

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[loo-jessica]
ya.. i totally agree with you...
since everything gotta happen 1..
y shouldnt i face it..XD
but ar...
not only scare to be hurted...
there's something holding me behind..
but its kinda a secret.. haha..
ya..i did really wan to forget about it..
not just put it behind my brain..
i wan to erase it from my memory as well..
but seems like im too over that i like forget other thing as well..XD
lolz...
its ok la..
i didnt mean anything also... =P

[死神]
lolz...
amount of comment doesnt matter with me actually..XD
u really geng ma...
can win wei hong leh..
looking forward to ur competition..=P
lolz...
i think i prefer to follow my feel..
its not like i gonna find a gf by plan or wat..
i juz feel like quite PLANNED or FAKED..
quite like that la..XD
like i said..
sometimes thing doesnt really will math wat i wan..XD
lolz...
kah ying is one of my really best best fren lai ar..
dont luan luan lai..
haha...
and we sit couple seat is juz for see syiok anot nia...
mana tau couple seat quite ordinary nia..=P
we all fren forever 1 la.. hehe...

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[kai jing]
haha...
to fall in love ar...
wait until i really find tiok 1 la..XD
but to some of my fren...
who know me very very well 1..
they know i wont fall in love that easily 1..
from 2 aspects.. =P

Anonymous said...

ni noe actually...bcoz i oso wont fall in love 2 a girl so easily 2.
i paktoh v a girl when i 14 years old...but at de end i hurt her...
i dun noe wat is truth love...
im juz a foolish of love...
so tat, i decided 2 b alone...
at least, i wont hurt anyone..XD

♥♂ Ⓐⓓⓐⓜ ♀♥ said...

[kai jing]
oo... sry to hear about that..
anyway...
being alone wont slove anything..
so like jessica said...
try it out...
coz its normal wut..
if its not happy ma si sad lo..XD
anyway..
good luck

Anonymous said...

thx ya...
quickly update ur blog la...
tis article de comment oredi wanna 爆炸liao..
haha...

Jessica said...

lols
i know eu update another blog dee
but i gonna reply here >.<
lolsssss
i like my name so much. thanks for agree wif my opinion. =P
lolss. something oso cant forget dee
even how eu force urself to
it oso wont help wert
instead of thinkin bout forget
why not eu start a new life?
maybe it wil help eu not to rmb for the sad memories
dun ever try forget anythin tat happened
bcos eu wil regret 1 day
its part of ur life, part of ur memory
without these, eu are not YOURSELF anymore.

lolsss.
i lazy write liao. i very tired dee. want go sleep de. NITESSSSS xD

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